Despite this the stories always seem excruciatingly certain of themselves: in the way they carry themselves, in the way there is never any imaginable alternative to what they recount, and even less to their perspective on it. Strangely, this might be the strongest thing in their favor — the mind that seems reflected in this writing feels as though it is teetering on the edge of an abyss, liable at any moment to collapse and fall into nothingness, into a full awareness of the irremediable contradictions it requires to go on being what it is (though we know, biographically, that it never did) — but there is something in the way that the stories perch themselves precisely at this moment, almost never stepping even slightly to one direction or the other, almost never even fidgeting, that is — what? Banally moving? Movingly banal? In part?
There is often a metaphorical conflation of the states "nakedness" and "honesty" but here I want to distinguish between them and say that maybe what I like about these stories, even though I hate them, is that while they're never honest — they are in fact vehemently dishonest — they're always naked. They're terrible, embarrassing, philistine, ideological nightmares, but somehow, paradoxically, by so being they lay bare aspects of writing and being that most other writing, even putatively truth-telling writing, tends to work so hard to conceal. (And yet this is not a recommendation — I don't recommend this book — it is nothing more than a fumbling attempt at explaining, if only to myself, why I don't regret having read it.)
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